I hope you have been sleeping well since you posted this!!!

I have knee pain that comes and goes.

I wish that I could have hypomania now. I just feel down sometimes.

The meds that I take suppress my sexual feelings.

My se Hal feelings have no meaning g at my house. Blow job and sex every day thts just how it is. No orgasim for me. Its just an expected job. Good fuckin times!!

Sorry Idk wht tht first part was supposed to say. I type on a kindle n it changes wht I type sometimes. I don't even remember wht I was trying to say. It looks like Spanish lmao. Hahahaha.

@wowimhere, I thought it was Spanish. LOL! How are you doing now?

Ok still not sleeping much. Actually told husband NO last....yeah me lmao.

Stressful times rite now. My father died as well, now I'm having to like nurse his back to health. Its really hard. Like none of the family knows I have any mental illness at all, tht would embarrass my husband.
Just keep on trucking I guess

all of my family knows about my illness and it helps alot...except for my mom...but hopefully she will come around more and more... and she is old... i am 50... so she is up there... i have no sexual desire since i have been on so many meds plus the change of life hasn't helped any.... used to i liked it all the time...now i just don't care!!! but i know that it is the side effects of my meds... i guess it really doesn't matter now... i have developed nerve damage in my low back and hips... and am in lots of pain just about all the time... and i don't think that would be the best sex partener anyway... heheheehe...

i think that bipolars' get a bad rap from the CSI shows... we all aren't that bad as they portray... and i believe that getting that bad rap keeps the stigma going that we are all crazy... and we aren't... we just have disorders to work with... like somebody having diabetes... they have to have treatment... and they don't get a stigma... i wish that we didn't !!! not really in the topic... but just came out for some reason... hugzzz :)

Rite! I hate tht too. People have this stereotype tht is way wrong. Most people don't have a clue what bipolar is they just think of crazy.....

Its also a good defense in court haha just kiddin. Little humor for this crappy illness.
I always compare it to high blood pressure. Nobody gives them shit about taking their medicine everyday. Or keeps telling them maybe u can go off ur meds soon/someday.

i have had my mommy in law and the preacher say that i might be able to get off of some of the meds... the way i see it... i need everyone of them!!! i actually need more, but they haven't come up with them yet... lol... but the thing that they don't understand about this illness is that it is for life... no ways around it... now i believe that there is varying degrees of it... some people may not have it as bad as the next... but that makes alot of difference in how the meds are given... i wish that my mommy in law and preacher would understand that... but nobody can unless they walk in my shoes for a while.. i have been on meds for 5 years or more... and i know how my mind feels... and it is alot better than it used to be... that is why i know that i need as much meds as i am on...and if they could only understant how it makes me feel when they say things like that!!! bad, that is how it makes me feel...

you sure have a sense of humor.....do whatever you can to reduce the stress...take care...sending love