Fuck it fuck it all...damn page don't want to load or post....everything feels impossible...no sane ground to stand on, no stability. I thought I was past this suicide demon. But the addiction screams you'll never get away from me. So I say fuck it all. I'm trapped in so many ways. I'm sick, perverse, few fries short of a hapoy meal. Happiness..if you can't have it then why fake it trybit to live in the real world..who am I kidding. Myself. I'm kidding myself with hopeful dreams and ambitions that will eventually crumble.