TTC after stillbirth Community Group
A group for those who have suffered a stillbirth and are considering ttc or actively ttc again. We know the emotional challenges of trying again and who better to support us than others who have been through what we have been through.
Hi. Some of you might recognize me from the stillbirth group, and I can't believe I'm finally here ttc with you!
It's only been 5 days now. I'm still kind of in shock that my boyfriend is ready to try again. I'm scared and worried. I'm so scared of having to inject the blood thinners, (I have a clotting disorder that killed my first daughter), and I'm about to start a new University on Monday and I don't know if I'm ready for this. It's just.... I ALREADY DID THIS ONCE! I did the 9 month long baby jail and swollen ankles and craving and puking, I should have my baby from then.
I don't know, I'm rambling, but I'm sure you all know how I feel. I'm terrified and ecstatic and mad, I feel like "what if this baby dies too," but I'm also thinking that I may be on my way to finally, finally, having a family of my own. Any advice? 'Cause I'm going to need it. hugs!
It's only been 5 days now. I'm still kind of in shock that my boyfriend is ready to try again. I'm scared and worried. I'm so scared of having to inject the blood thinners, (I have a clotting disorder that killed my first daughter), and I'm about to start a new University on Monday and I don't know if I'm ready for this. It's just.... I ALREADY DID THIS ONCE! I did the 9 month long baby jail and swollen ankles and craving and puking, I should have my baby from then.
I don't know, I'm rambling, but I'm sure you all know how I feel. I'm terrified and ecstatic and mad, I feel like "what if this baby dies too," but I'm also thinking that I may be on my way to finally, finally, having a family of my own. Any advice? 'Cause I'm going to need it. hugs!
Also....some time ago I had been debating on taking a big chance in my life, I didn't know how things would go and if it all the hell I knew I had to go through was going to be worth the risk. A friend handed me a message they had recieved in a fortune cookie, the message meant so much to them that they kept it in their wallet as a reminder. The words read: "the biggest risk in life is not taking one." Those words have helped give me strength and courage to take many risks in my life. I have had a lot of happiness come from taking risks. Though some risks have proven themselves bad, but the good always out ways the bad and I don't regret a single risk I've taken because good or bad, I've gained a lot from it. Though I lost my precious Madeline....I'd do it all again because she showed me a new depth of love and I have a deeper appreciation for life. Sometimes we have to face a terrible storm in our lives to truly appreciate the feel and warmth given from the sunshine.
You and your dear boyfriend are in my thoughts and prayers.
Much love,
Jennifer