So I am one of the few women in my family who wanted to wait until i had become financially and emotionally stable after leaving an absuive relationship before trying to concieve. But it's getting harder to hold out hope. We (my hudhusb and I) have been trying for quite some time, less than a year to no avail, and another birthday is next week. I've had the most hurtful comments from my family telling me my eggs are too old, it won't happen I'm too old ( I'll be 37 next week), and maybe they are right. 

I don't know. I just know that I've wanted marriage and kids all my life. It happened early for everyone except me. I went through a series of bad relationships, one that eneded in a miscarriage from the stress at 22, and this last one that I still have nightmares from six years later. I've always been supportive of everyone, took care of my family when they needed financial support, I give my all in everything I do. Now it seems like the one thing I want, may not happen. 

I am perfectly healthy, as is my sposes. I don't drink or smoke, have never been on BC, exercise and all things considered with family demands I keep my stress level relatively low. 

I am trying to stay positive, but there is so much negativity, I have lost the will to believe that this will ever happen. There is nothing I want more than to be a mother. 

But will it ever happen?

I am sorry to rant. I know my problem seems so small. Maybe it's my fault. I sacrificed my time to help my family financially and it cost me time to try and concieve earlier. I have no one else to talk to who understands me. This seems so small compared to other problems women have in concieving, so I hope I'm not being selfish and wasting anyone's time. I just really want to be a mother.ive wanted it forever. Maybe it's too late and I put it off being a mother to everyone else.