I have been gripped by trichophilia or better known as the hair fetish for ten and a half years now. It just started as a paraphilia but no sooner it started derailing my mood and masturbation cycles. The repeated act of doing it day over day has now resulted in very long disturbing years of my life. I'm tired of it and wish to stop it. All of this commenced when I started watching women/girls getting their haircut on youtube. Where Long hair is cut with scissors into feather cut; ladies preferring a short bob during summer; girls scrapping it to a pixie; the use of straight razor over the nape. Most of these video would be available on Youtube channels like 'haarrimaar TV', 'women haircut', etc.  Watching them excited me. I started stroking and masturbating. The count which had just started with one per day quickly escalated to 6-8 times a day. Back then, I never realized the kind of trap I had started falling into. Hence I never took corrective measures in the first place.

So eventually, this small act of crime and the amazing power of bad habit gave me God's eye. Now I would stalk every girl and women on the street who was sporting a short hair or recently had a haircut. To add to my own misery I realized that rather than turning-on by physique and hotness of the opposite gender, I would be turned on by their hair lengths and haircut. My personal favourite became the mid-age women with a boy-cut hair and clean nape. Nonetheless, my eyes did role towards girls having long and lustrous hair, which I undoubtedly wanted to cut. Hereafter the game just levelled up in no time, altogether. From just having it as a fetish, it turned on to being a paraphilia which thereby excited me to stroke (masturbate).

In the seventh year of this, I had made a girlfriend. With one of the ulterior motives to let-go this habit. I had promised myself of not revealing this to her. She had a mid-length hair which was very beautiful. Any girl would die to have those curls and the hair-volume and bounce. I was totally liking it. So as it happens, one fine day she approaches me requesting me to accompany her to a unisex salon. It was like a dream come true. We travelled to this place in a mall. Where she was given a hair wash and later made to sit in a chair with a black cape around her. Her hair had splits ends and the cut had gone out of shape. I was not hoping for more than an inch to be reduced. But when the stylist came in, she asked to take around 5 inches. Requesting for more layers and short side swept bangs in the front. OMG! I was totally turned-on listening to that. I saw how they parted her hair and took section by section and then cut it. The front flick was totally arousing me. Like why not? Something which I was accustomed seeing over the screen was happening right in front of me. I confess I was completed aroused and wished to mastubate the very moment. Later when her hair was blow-dried, she looked like a princess. That evening, I couldn't stop running my finger in her hair until she slept.

This incident did change my life. But for the worse. I started waiting for her next visit to get her haircut. Almost after 8 months, we visited some other place. This time she went even shorter. Almost above her chest. I was enjoying this. But I was regretting this habit of mine. Today, she is away from me and I am back on to youtube videos. I still haven't been able to figure out how to stop this problem of being aroused by hair fetish and then masturbate. It has totally taken me off guard. Leading to Loss of concentration, anxiety to release stress, asexual satisfaction,etc.

I would really like to get in touch with people facing similiar issues and discuss it over. In a hope to find answers to this problm.

Thank you !