I dont think I have ever felt more lost in my life. My amazing fiance came out to me about a year ago now, switching his pronouns simple, helping him with his binders and packers a breeze, thinking of him as the future father to our children easy peasy.
Then the hard stuff hits. It hits like a semi. Who am I now? Me? Who am I in this? I have identified as a lesbian since I was 11 and now I am in a straight relationship and just saying that feels weird though I see him as him. Who is he? Who will he become? He is in therapy now, which means T is sure to follow soon... What will become of his personality that I am so on love with? What will come of his appearance that I now swoon over? What will become of our sex life which was amazing yet is slowly fading? How do I support him through this? How do I support me? I dont want to leave but there are days that every single part of me screams to go. Somedays its so much easier to swollow than others. Somedays I feel totally helplesss. I dont know how to talk to him, when I do I can see me breaking his heart, but I feel as if I am mourning as life as it was.
I'm scared. Worried. Alone.
Hi all,I joined a different group - Spouses of Transgender or something like that, and it turns out that they are very transphobic! They insist that being transgender is a mental illness, spouses should just leave, etc. I have left that group.My son is FtM and my spouse recently came out as MtF "trans-curious". My marriage relationship is the only one I'm having trouble with, although I have...
theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??