well, this has nothing to do with TS but this has been quite a week. Well, i guess it has something to do with TS- i have a close friend with severe TS that for some reason has become a pretty unhealthy relationship for me to be in anymore. It is painful because i love him so much and he is an extremely brilliant, talented, artistic, funny person who has the biggest heart but lately he has been acting so different and not himself and he did something that really hurt me and refuses to acknowledge it or apologize. He has never been like that before. I am having to weigh the positives and the negatives and the negatives are outweighing the positives right now. But it hurts. it hurts because i thought we had something special and for me nothing would change my feelings for him but he just doesnt seem to care about me right now and i never thought that would happen. yet i can't just let the thing he did go. i found out he has been attacking another friend too and she has just decided he is not a healthy friendship for her anymore. It is so sad because he has so few people in his life and he is shutting us out one by one.

then my best friend's daughter has been causing havoc and despair for her mom and everyone else- i think she has narcissistic personality disorder. she has been staying with her mom and it has been hell trying to convince her mom to kick her out and at the same time sitting back and waiting until she is ready and has had enough. her daughter is in her 30s and has been living off her mom for the last year- always 'trying to find an apartment.' now she has been fired and cant get unemployment and is going to be on the streets but her mom has finally had enough and the cops should be showing up to get her out tomorrow a.m. i sure hope this goes through and that her mom can stick it out this time because she needs to get help herself.

on the bright side, obama won the presidency and that is the one great thing that i have to pick me up and make me feel better. i am so thrilled that America has finally woken up and demanded change and stopped accepting the crappy government we have lived with for the past 8 years, and i mean no offense to those of you out there who supported mccain- i think regardless of who we supported we all want the same thing and that is an America we can be proud of again.