Hello everyone,my name is Jelena,I'm 25 Years old and I am from Croatia.I was playing tennis since I was 8 years old.When I was 17 I noticed that I can't make my pinky connect with my other fingers( on my left hand,ps.I'm a righty).After that I couldn't get a good grip on anything and my hand was atrophied and started shaking because she was so weak.The thing is, at the beginning no one would believe me because i didn't feel Any pain Like most of you guys do, and it only got worst. After two Years it got to a point I couldnt grip on to anythings, i felt so weak with my left hand so at 19 I went to a neurologist and he couldnt figure out what was wrong with me, even after an MRI(The cervical spine) and multiple tests.So she eventually gave up on me and told me to give up on tennis.After that I tried with other doctor who gave me calming pills.Also I tried with some alternatives who did not help.Three years later, I was sent to a phisyo therapist. She gave me a few exersises to do and got me on "electric therapy"(30times in a year), and that went on for about a year and half. With no good results she sent me to get a DOPPLER test. At this point I am 23 years old, and with the result of the doppler test they saw I have a bad blood circulation to my left arm. And with that they sent me to get an MRI of my chest. And finally, at 24 years old, they found out I have thoracic outlet syndrome. With that, I went to a surgen who told me He will have to operate and remove my first rib. Fastforward to today Im still thinking about the operation and trying to figure out a few ways to get around that. For now, im only going to therapy and it actually improve my strength a little bit but I feel like I wont get the result I want. What I want to ask you guys, is there anyway I could get my full strenght back to my left hand without going through the operation? Thank you so much for reading and I hope to hear from you guys soon.
Unloved, unloveable, unwanted, undesired, rejected, ashamed, inadequate, overlooked, failure, isolated, overlooked, repulsive, invisible, lonely. This is how I feel about myself and I don't like it. I am not looking for sympathy. Just wanted to be honest with myself. Please pray for me.