Aw, Kim, sweetie. Big deep hugs hun. Bad news is always hard to swallow when it first arrives, until you equip yourself with the knowlegde of back up plans and finding your safety nets for ---just in case scenerios. Worst case scenerios don't usually arrive, but if they do, something always comes along and you will manage and Dec-Jan will become a thing of the past. I guess thats why 'they' say, one day at a time. In the meantime, your fear is very real and we are here for your support. If you ever need to make a thread discussion and get it all you, please don't hesitate. It is very liberating and opens up new ideas for yourself.

I found what helped me through my lastest upheaval was going to the library and reading about people who have gone through similar situations. Although I may not totally relate to the author, I would find solace or insight into something that would help. If anything, it kept me from worrying. Or, I would find a book of a spiritual nature. A little faith goes a long way. Follow your gut instinct.

For me, the sun is shining and I took my doggies for a walk. My new dog started barking and suddenly dropped to the ground and looked dazed and wouldn't get up. She finally walked for a few minutes and then stopped and I had to carry her home. Have to watch her today.

My turkey dinner went wonderful last night now that Mr negative is gone from my life. I have never been 'single' and I must say, it is selfishly wonderful. I even dress different. The dinner was made the way "I" like it and it was much more flavorful. Head hurts today, but for some reason, that is okay.

Hope everyone is faring well.

Angela

dear dixie, i understand the stress and i agree with enigma. i understand the concern, but there will be ways just in case. when i first moved here i had to go to the food bank a couple of times.

enigma, so glad that your dinner turned out nicely. i love the sense of freedom of being single, too. things still pop into my mind at time that remind me of how much more relaxed i am. enjoy!

i ate some of my cooking from yesterday - roasted veggie spread on pita and later some roast and veggies. i also went to a health fair up the street which was nice and ended with a 5 minute massage. i wanted to stay at that station! time for a restful evening.

Hey...

I didn't mean to go missing...no excuses.

Kim...did you find anyone to drive the truck for your hubby? Do you still sell your wonderful soap? I hope this struggle passes quickly and your life can get back to normal...whatever normal is. We're here for you, hun.

Angela...ahhhhh...freedom to be your authentic self.

Serenity...it sounds like a nice day. I'd love even five minutes of massage time!

I colored, cut and glossed my Sister's hair this morning without letting her see that my neck and shoulder were hurting like hell. She does so much for me that there's no way I'm going to let her look shabby!

Then I met two friends for lunch and we talked for a long time. It was the first time I've done anything with friends for a long time. Haven't amounted to more than a load of laundry since, though.

Hugs and clucks...

cherry, you'd beat me if you could see what i did to my hair. i accidentally bought the wrong box color. i know box color is evil. my hair is such a dark auburn it almost looks black. the beauty schools won't touch it. salons want $300 - ha ha ha. i bought peroxide, but it's straight liquid, not creme. oh, nightmare.

sounds like you had a really good day. glad you could do your sister's hair and have lunch with friends!

Oh no! Don't put anything else on your hair. Try shampooing a few times with a cheap shampoo like Suave or even Dawn dish liquid. These products are very alkaline and hair is more acid. That's why you get that squeaky clean sound...it's stripping your hair! In this case, it's a good thing!

Also...box colors fade quickly. Good luck!

thanks, cherry. i'm going to try dawn today. kills my back to bend over the sink, but i'll do it as much as i can...