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Hello to all:
And to all a good night? I dunno. Last 10 days have been awful. My pain has escalated. I have no idea why. I do know that yesterday was a huge struggle. I forgot my meds in the AM. My wife had to bring them to me. She didnt come til 11.
I was sitting at my desk and pain was just overwhelming . I was literally punching my legs as hard as i could to get SOME feeling other than pain. Where was Toni to beat me with a bat? Went to the bathroom and sat. Then i went outside and screamed. It was that kind of pain.
My wife is trying so hard to help me. She cooked every day this week including a pot roast last nite. I wish i could do more for her. I wish i could get better.
I do see silver linings and have bright moments. But they are fleeting. The Pain Clinic doctors are assholes. I am just a number. I think theyd rather soon be rid of me than help me.
If my pain gets too high i can have a stroke. Have had two so far to prove it. So i have to beg the pain drs for my life??
Just need support and prayers.
Pain has taken over. From the great movie Shawshank Redemption "put your trust in the Lord, your ass belongs to me".
Over and out.
Martin
And to all a good night? I dunno. Last 10 days have been awful. My pain has escalated. I have no idea why. I do know that yesterday was a huge struggle. I forgot my meds in the AM. My wife had to bring them to me. She didnt come til 11.
I was sitting at my desk and pain was just overwhelming . I was literally punching my legs as hard as i could to get SOME feeling other than pain. Where was Toni to beat me with a bat? Went to the bathroom and sat. Then i went outside and screamed. It was that kind of pain.
My wife is trying so hard to help me. She cooked every day this week including a pot roast last nite. I wish i could do more for her. I wish i could get better.
I do see silver linings and have bright moments. But they are fleeting. The Pain Clinic doctors are assholes. I am just a number. I think theyd rather soon be rid of me than help me.
If my pain gets too high i can have a stroke. Have had two so far to prove it. So i have to beg the pain drs for my life??
Just need support and prayers.
Pain has taken over. From the great movie Shawshank Redemption "put your trust in the Lord, your ass belongs to me".
Over and out.
Martin
Here with a shoulder.......just so very sad for you to suffer......
From the descriptions you gave just wondering if you need to see someone new.
I don't know how you manage work every day.
Hoping n praying for some answers for you. Big hugs
Don't give up, sometimes it takes hit and misses with docs until you find the right one to help and get the one that works with you and finds the formula that helps.......
Comforting hugs.......no bat!
It is just becoming too much. The pain and working full time is inhumane. You know i was thinkink alot yesterday and the Pain Clinic can often be very dehumanizing. Are we animals? They have to buzz you in the door. The nurses are in a bulletproof enclosed glass office. To keep the animals out? Yes i know some ppl probalbly get mad at them. But bulletproof glass?
It is complicated. Yes i could go on disabilty. My wife and I would have to give up our hopes and dreams of retirement. She is a pretty cool woman but she grew up poor and doesnt want to support me financially as she has built her own business. I wouldnt make her. I could live with my brother.
Not giving up but pretty damn close. Sorry to be a downer but i gotta get this out.
If i gotta beg the doctors for my life what life is it?
Your goal is to feel better don't lose site of that. Disability doesn't make that happen :) and there aren't any guarantees you'll get it, it's getting even harder to get accepted. So stick to goal of feeling better and finding answers! or I'm getting my Louie out!
Since western medicine isn't bring you any relief you might want to consider eastern. I had a period of a little over a year between my 5th & 6th back surgery in which I was without insurance. During this time I had Accupuncture treatments at least once a week along with adjustments using an activator, I won't get manual. I also listened to guided meditation and sekf hypnosis. Many say they can't concentrate long enough to do them, but the beauty is you don't need to. Just put your headphones on when you go to bed each night, and let it do its work. YouTube has some videos that are up to eight hrs long.
Just thought I'd throw it out there as I don't like knowing your in so much pain. Even listening to music, anything to avert your mind from the pain almost always works wonders. Keeping you tucked in my prayers. I hope your day is kinder to you tomorrow.
Love & Hugs
Lisa
Please insist your doctor run tests to determine what is going on. I know first hand how we can get stuck in our "chronic illness bubble" and just assume that is what is causing the issues. There may be something else going on to cause your increase in pain.
I know how hard working every day is. Living for the weekends! TGIF!
Love and hugs, Vicky