Hard to find a support group for the ones who did the cheating..... If you are sorry for your mistakes, want to be a better partner/person and can't find anyone to accept your apologies, we will here!
Just like everyone else in those group, I am the one who cheated. My husband and I got married right after I graduated high school and he still had one year left, which makes 18 years this year. Got pregnant a month after we got married. We have known each other since we were in elementary school and we were each other's first, just not only, because we never really dated up until a few months before we got married. I cheated on him 7 years ago. He finally kissed me again for the first time after my infidelity a couple of months ago. We had a talk tonight and I asked him if he loved me. Let's just say the answer I got wasn't what I wanted to hear, of course. And I know it's my fault. I don't know if things will ever get back to "normal". The things that were finally able to be discussed, it was hard to hear his answers to questions. I do get it, I understand, he got crushed, and I did it to him. I should want anything and I really don't feel like I deserve to ask anything of him or to even be happy. I feel I should be miserable and not get those good feelings back because of what I did. I just don't want him to have to suffer with me. He should be able to be happy and I don't think we can ever be truly happy again.