Recently I've gone through a really hard breakup. He ended it with me and it tore my heart apart. We have been through a lot. And it's just hard when you love someone and they don't want to be together anymore. He tells me we can be friends. And I want to, but it's hard. I want to be with him but I'm just trying to accept the fact that we'll probably never get back together. I miss him so much. He tells me he loves and cares but he just can't be with me. Recently he told me he's suffering from dementia and schizophrenia. He said he didn't want to hurt me anymore. And that this was what needed to be done I wish he knew that I would still stay. But he doesn't want me to stay or hurt. But he already hurt me. I just want to be there for him. Even if that means just being friends. But deep down I'll always want more. I don't know what to do now though. I try to act okay but it's hard. I feel very alone. He and I both cut. And talk about suicide. I know I never will but sometimes the pain is just to much. I just want someone to talk to and not to be alone. I still love him, and wish we were together. But I've tried everything and I feel I'm pushing him away more. I just want us to be friends or something.. I don't want to lose him. I just want to see him. But I know he doesn't feel the same. He's so confusing. I'm trying to stay strong. But it's hard. I just want to fix things and be okay.