There is so much to say, but the beginning started like everyone else. He was perfect and amazing and I fell for him instantly. By the second date he had told me he was going to marry me. By 6 weeks we were married against the advisement of all my friends. I was too happy and felt they didn't understand.

Throughout the relationship there were periods where he would completely break me down telling me I couldn't be trusted, I am a liar, no one respects me, I am probably a slut and the list continues. But then he would build me back up telling me how amazing I am, how lucky he is, take me out on great dates and of course we had amazing sex. During this time he had isolated me from my friends, my family, and encouraged me to no longer work, so I was alone.

Fast forward 3 1/2 years and he tells me we are done out of the blue and he wants me out of the house by the end of the month, which was just this January. I was devastated. I ran home to figure something out and when I returned back home, he held me tight crying with me. The. He tells me he has no right to ask me this, but would I be willing to consider this a break instead of a divorce, even though I was moving 350 miles away. I said of course and we spent the next two weeks as I packed distant and sad. And when I moved he held me tight and cried. I was hopeful.

When I moved he sent me love messages telling me how much he misses me. Talked about meeting half way and even sent me flowers on Valentine's Day. All this made me have hope. Now just three days ago he calls me to tell me he is a drug addict and he is addicted to his pain pills and tried to commit suicide 6 months ago. And then he said he doesn't blame me, which made me pause because I wouldn't think he would, but he said he did because I didn't notice. He said he was going to find a facility after he goes on a road trip with friends. The whole conversation made me feel awful.

The next night I got the urge to google him and found him on a blocked page, but I was able to see her Facebook page and there was my husband as her cover shot and many pics below. Including an their engagement photo from Dec 9th, 3 days before my birthday. The same birthday that he apologized he couldn't do more but money was tight. 

Besides me being completely blind sighted and destroyed. He is doing this to his daughters. He has pictures with this woman on nights I was with his girls and his mother. I am trying my hardest to keep calm and not play into his hands. I know he wants me to rant and rave and text and call like crazy so he can tell his girls that I am crazy. He said he will call me when he can talk alone, but I haven't heard from him. I am not sure what his plans were for getting engaged to her and keep me on a string while I was gone. The only thing I can think is he wanted to keep us both. She lives in Mexico, so maybe he was going to marry her there and keep me too. 

When I am not crying, I find myself laughing at well he played me. The layers of deceit are so amazing and the complete disregard of not only me but his two daughters who claims are his world. I feel the worst for them because I can walk away and never see him again. They are stuck with him. 

 I am sorry for all that have dealt with someone like him. I am struggling to find myself again, but keep thinking I shouldn't do that it will make him mad before I remember I shouldn't care.