Suicide Community Group
Just what the name says. Anything to do with suicide. I want this to be a place where people can discuss their issues about suicide, whether they or someone they know has tried it, are thinking about trying it, or just want to discuss it. I want this to be a place where people can voice their issues, and receive positive feedback and help. Remember: Suicide is a permanent...
I think about killing myself, and then, I think that I might make the people that I know miserable. Yet, I lean towards the idea of suicide anyway. Then, I feel like a bad person. I think I'm an asshole. Then, I remember that no one in real life actually needs me to be around for anything. Regardless, I keep stalling. Maybe I'm too scared to do it. In spite of that, I kept trying to kill myself in the past one time after another.
It's been like that for years now. My thoughts go back and forth like that. I'm annoying and my thoughts are annoying. Ignoring them doesn't help. Lately, I've been telling myself every day, "Just do it already. Everyone I know will be fine without me. They never needed me for anything."
I think it's good that no one ever needs me. It makes it easier to consider suicide. A lot of times, I feel like killing myself over a small matter. Since I act like that, it makes me think maybe it wouldn't be a big deal if I did kill myself. I can't handle anything. I can't do anything right. My family probably hates me.
They probably hated me my whole life. I must have annoyed them too. Maybe they just never felt like saying that they hate me out loud. Suicide keeps looking like a good option for me as time goes by for some reason.
Can I suggest you try to put aside a lot of the negative thoughts, worry less about family members, and try putting together some goals, and write down some possible ways of achieving them. Let's see what happens, perhaps others in the group can contribute, and let's see if we can achieve some of them!