Suicide Community Group

Just what the name says. Anything to do with suicide. I want this to be a place where people can discuss their issues about suicide, whether they or someone they know has tried it, are thinking about trying it, or just want to discuss it. I want this to be a place where people can voice their issues, and receive positive feedback and help. Remember: Suicide is a permanent...

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mystie
mystie
I am thinking about suicide more and more. I told my pdoc a few ways I would try. He still thinks I should go into the hospital, but I still feel what is the point. He said it is a way for me to not have any outside stress of daily life and to really work on myself and have a medication review.
I am afraid to go into the hospital because of my kids, my b/f and my new job. It seems I keep sinking further into exhaustion, depression and my anxiety. I don't know if it is because I'm working part time, which is turning out to be fulltime hours. It kinda pisses me off but they had four people quit....but I don't want so many hours. My pdoc didn't even want me to be working, but I felt it would help not sitting around all the time.
Everyday I wake up feeling so useless I just think that maybe today should be the day.
The pain has become to draining and I have no fight left in me.
Community LeaderWanderingVet
WanderingVet
If you are suicidal, I would say take your doctor's advice. Your kids (depending on their age) should support whatever is best for you, and so should your boyfriend. Unless you depend on the income, you probably should not be working anyway.
Yes, ... go to the hospital. The alternative is to remain stuck where you are, .. and that is not satisfactory. You need some peace, tranquility, and introspection. It is crucial at this point. Explain to kids and b/f, give notice, and go.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Wanderingvet is right. Your kids won't only support what you need, bt you need to do what is best for them. It is better for them to have a mantally healthy and fit parent rather than a suicidal one, or none at all. You need to do what is best for your relationships and yourself, and that would be to seek the help that you need. Life can seem tedious and redundant at times and that makes you feel useless, but you aren't useless. Your kids wouldn't say that you are. They love you, yo are their mother. They cannot get their loving nature from anyone but you, and that is an important job in your life. Taking a break from all of these stresses is probably a good thing for you at this point. If you need any other help or need to talk I am here. Good luck with your choice. Be well.
deleted_user
deleted_user
mystie, i know how you feel. i questioned the suggestion that i go into the hospital as well. and i got pretty much the same answer that you did. so i went in-twice this year. It did help. it was nice to just be in there, around the techs, docs, and nurses. there was always someone on staff that i could talk to. even at 3 in the morning, they were there and ready to listen to me, even if it was just sitting with me while i cried.please don't harm yourself. again, i know the feeling. what keeps me going are my children and friends who would be devastated if i died.
i really care about you, truly. please take care of YOU!!!
mystie
mystie
Thank you everyone. I guess since I've never been in the hospital I worry about it and how it will be. I also worry about how my family will handle it. But I probably should be taking the break, becuase I don't seem to be getting any better.
I've been working towards getting better but I just get so tired. I'm so tired and exhausted all the time and feel sick often.
Community LeaderWanderingVet
WanderingVet
If going to the hospital was going to a 'bad place', our modern society would do something about it. Unlike many years ago, mental health treatment is kind, supportive, tender, and effective. If your doctor recommends it, it is likely waiting for you so you can begin recovery.
Give yourself every chance to pull out of your predicament, and consider what is best for you, .. based on your doctor, sounds like a little while in a more intense treatment environment will do you well.