Between the 11th anniversary and her 35th birthday: 3/2/11 to 4/11/22.  "Out in the garden when we planted the seeds, there is a tree that is old as me; branches were sewn by the color of green; ground had arose and past its knees; by the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top; when the gusts came around to blow me down, held on as tightly as you held onto me, and I built a home for you, for me, until it dispaerred from me, from you. And now it's time to leave, to turn to dust."

I've called the hotlines. I told my psychiatrist and she said, "I can't help you."  What else is there left to do.

(64) The Cinematic Orchestra - To Build a Home - Lyrics - YouTube