I'm 59 and have been desperately depressed and anxious all of my life. At 29 things REALLY took a turn for the worse. The thing is they honestly NEVER got better. I'm starting to realize 1 awful truth and that is, Avoid unhealthy people as much as possible. They can destroy you.
We have no say as to the family we're born into, though. It seems to me that having 2 Highly Narcissistic parents set me up for a Horrible life. Yes, horrible and I know anyone would agree with me on that. No one has ever cared, and the many people I've known have even been highly abusive towards me.
I am going to make another suicide attempt soon, because I know things aren't going to get better. I've been waiting around for so long now and it has never happened. If people bother to encourage you by saying it will, it's a Lie!
I still feel like I don't want to be alive. I wish and prefer that I could fall asleep and never wake up. I hate the way that I live and how I spend my life and I wish I was gone. I never have enought time. My headaches come every day and I walk in a complete fog.
I cant say no. I'm not allowed to say no. My team can say no to me. Other teams can say no and pick and choose but I am the last resort for anything that is an ask at our company. I can't say, "no that should be someone else's problem" My bosses solutions have been to add project managers to help watch what I do which results in more meetings and status updates on my...