I used to be a member of this group years ago and then lost my computer. I was feeling better and doing better for awhile. But now that I am 63 and disabled with Fibro and Arthritis the depression is is high. I have a 25 yr old son who lives with me but lately he seems more interested in being online with his bf or others near his age. We don't really talk much, and it makes me feel lonely. Yes, I have spoken to him about it but seems we only spend one day a week together. During the day I can keep myself busy and distracted. It's the late night hours that get to me and I begin to feel so depressed that I literally feel pain inside. I don't want to go back to cutting but for those that do it, I know you understand that causing pain on the outside sometimes releases the pain on the inside, even if just for a little while. Sorry for the long-winded post. Thank you for allowing me to talk