First of all I want to thank everyone for words of encouragement during the hardest time in my life. I recently lost my husband on July 9, 2013. It was very sudden and unexpected. My biggest fear is that I am not accepting the reality where my husband is no longer here. I am trying to keep busy as everyone says, but find myself getting lost in his picture or my mind wanders to what I think that he or we would be doing if he was here. He was my everything. The loneliness is a whole other issue. TV and reading only goes so far.