Hello, I'm new here and im in the late stages of pkd. I'm very close to kidney failure and I'm absolutely terrified about my future. I've watched 3 family members go through this and 2 of them have since passed. They both struggled a lot. I'm having a hard time with my future situation. I'm trying to stay positive but it's so hard. It's like I'm a ticking time bomb and I'm waiting for it to explode. I'm really struggling with staying positive about my future. I've been going through all the tests to prepare for a transplant.  I'm not alone in my life yet I feel like I am. I don't know what to do