I am definitely struggling with self-esteem and can relate. I gained a great deal of weight in my quest to become stable, and none of the drugs that made me gain ended up helping me. I am slowly losing the weight, but I still haven't gotten my self confidence back. This is extremely difficult for me, as I used to be a very confident person. I try doing silly things like making sure to fix myself up as much as possible whenever I leave the house, if for no other reason than a little makeup and a good pair of heels can make me feel worlds better about my appearence.
As to the underlying issues of self-worth, I try to list all the positive things that I have to offer in my journal on a regular basis, or at least when I'm feeling particularly low. For example, I'm compassionate, I'm intelligent, and I'm fun to be around. This helps me, too, although I obviously haven't figured out the magic solution yet. Believe me, when I do, i will share it with you right away! :)
As for accepting yourself with BP, I think it all comes down to changing your perspective and not letting the bipolar define you. It's kind of the difference betweeen "I AM bipolar and I HAVE bipolar." It's obviously a very big factor in your life, but it isn't who you are. It took me time to make the leap, but I very seldom let my BP influence my view of myself anymore.

thanks for your thoughtful reply

Anytime. I hope you find a way to overcome your issues with confidence, and also meet someone wonderful!

Dear Lee...I can certainly relate to what you're saying. Weight gain has caused a huge huge loss in my self esteem....and even though I have things to work on in me, such as self image, personal peace and joy, and stability. It has only been between four and five months since dating my last boyfriend, but none of my relationships except two have been for any length of time, and the latest of those, 3 and a half years ago. Keep striving for your best, looking to the Lord for His plan for your love life, and go out and have fun, but trust that still small voice and be safe. :) I'm proud of you for coming so far in your life that you feel you're ready. I am sure a loving and caring man is out there for you.

Great advice Jasmine! My self esteem has taking an ass kicking since I have been on bipolar meds. I have gained 30 lbs and feel like crap. My my bf, a fellow beeper, who I have been with for almost 5 months, loves the way I look, on top of my other qualities. I guess that is all that matters. I will find a way to take the weight off.
Hugs

Has anyone checked out looking for a new partner, it just started up.

James