I'm new here. I recently felt compelled to get some support from people who can relate to my situation a little better. I would really love some feedback here so I'm trying not to write a book but it is quite a long story. I'm the youngest of three girls. I'm 23, my sisters are 30 and 32. My parents divorced 18 years ago and our father has mostly been out of the picture since. 2 and a half years ago we found out that my sister, the 30 yr. old, had been doing meth. I was already aware of her a prescription drug addiction and was trying to help her overcome that. When we found out about the meth my mother stopped giving her money and took away her car. After months of begging her to get help she finally had her children's father take her two girls and committed herself into an outpatient therapy program and was prescribed meds to help the cravings. That's when the drinking began. After completing the 9 month program she is still on her meds but now she has to drink if she needs to function, though since she has no responsibilities she rarely has to be functional and mostly stays in her apartment and stays drunk. She goes to the doctor and knows what to say to get him to give her the type of pills she wants. She manipulates my mother into doing things for her or making her believe certain things. She is VERY good at that. I'm at the point of resentment. I have been for a while. My oldest sister hasn't spoken to her since we found out about the meth. I haven't gone to that extreme yet but I think I'm getting close. I avoid her if at all possible. What fuels her addiction is our mother and father. He was abusive in every way and my mother was aware for years but was too scared to leave. The messed up part is she holds more resentment towards our mother than our father. Our mom has done everything she could to make up for not leaving our Dad sooner. Dad has had no part in our lives until my sister found out he had a methadone prescription. She then started a relationship with him. Took her 2 daughters to see him and even has a photo of them sitting on his lap. But she says its our mothers fault that she is an addict. I know shes got a lot of pain and a lot of anger inside of her. But I can't continue to live in the past and she refuses to move on. It took me a long time to let go of those negative feelings but I'm afraid I could go back there again. I don't think I know how to help her without putting myself at risk. I have my own family depending on me. I can't fall back into that pit. I find myself praying she will get arrested.I hate seeing what its doing to my mom. And I hate to say it, and it makes me feel like a horrible person, but when I'm at my lowest I find myself wishing it was just over already for my own sanity
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