It was 5 years in August that I received the call.And I will never forget it.I cant picture Frank gone,but he is and here I am all alone.There is a song that was out in 1962 and it was recorded by Brenda Lee.In the song.Ms.Lee laments,,,,all alone am i ever since your goodbye...all alone with just a piece of my heart...this is how I feel.I feel so alone.Do you know that noone understands the death of a brother or sister? I mean how are we suppose to feel? And what does a person say if they dont have a brother or sister to you? Doesnt anyone know? Why are people today so caught up,in the Oprah and what this woman does and yet when someone they know dies,they freeze up? Is it something in the air? Cant anyone understand my loneliness? Can t anyone understand my pain? And the saying that "time heals all wounds." is false...all time does is that you realize the person wont come back and you are left holding the bag and you are lonely..and this loneliness is killing me.Do I cry? Of yes,I do.....and since Brad died...this loneliness has increased and I am at a stage where people are leaving seattle and not coming back,,but i cant move and i cant leave...Brad left me with limited funds and I cant afford it.I will always miss my brother and i will always cry on 12/20...his birthday and the anniversary of his death.8/1/2004.How can I cope with this pain? Who can I talk to here?