It is remarkable in this world today just how two faced people are.She has not spoke to me since my brother died and I do not know why.Noone knows of this pain inside and how I cry everyday.Noone knows how I am spending money on things that I do not need.Noone knows how I am crying just to aleve myself of this pain and noone really cares anymore.It is sad to say that you have to have a lot of money for people to like you.With money you can have almost anything and I will feel a lot better.And today I was looking at the picture of Frank--when he was 21 years old.Oh! I wish those years were back! I want to be in my room again! I want to sleep in my bed again and I want my dog back!But most of all--I want to see my father and talk to him about this.I want to see him again and it is not possible.I am in so much pain and I do not know what do anymore.Noone is listening here in seattle and Brad just came off of a binge.Brad was drinking heavily for 1 week and noone saw or heard from me.He was just a different person and now he is sober.I can relate to pain and loss because of the songs of Kurt Cobain.Kurt's songs have freed me from a life of hyprocrisy and this is why I moved here.I realized a long time ago,that I would never be a CEO nor will I ever have my own busiess.I am a working stiff.But Frank taught me how to love travel,The Yankees and all sports and I must live in this sad world and live in a world without Frank.I miss Frank.Please help me! I want to go the cemetery and weep! So I am weeping for Frank all alone.All alone am I Brenda Lee sang.