What can I do? Frank is gone and I have got noone to talk to.I just feel so alone and all I have now are my cats.Things have been happening here that I cannot explain and I am feeling so overwhelmed and I cannot talk to Brad.Brad and I do not talk and I do not know what he is thinking.But all I can say is that I am in pain and it gets worse everyday.I just found out that a good friend of mine in seattle killed himself over this same reason and the thing that bothers me is that noone gives a damm.I did not know that he had problems and I tried to talk to him,but the men here are from Mars and some of them do not talk.The seattle men are into sports,the i-pods,music and text messanging.They are also into their cell phone and ever since she got hers..she is always gabbing.Seattle please do me a big favor,can you please be quiet! Why is it necessary that you talk on the bus,supermarket and every where else.I want to know why that people are always talking and what about.It is not necessary to be on that phone,morning,noon and night and Brad and I we share the cell phone and I do not call people in the day.I call them on friday and the week-end because you what some of them are not that important to me.One of my friends back east has moved to Missouri and it was for reasons that I cannot go into here.She is elderly but she will have a house again after 20 years.Her family stinks and she knows it.Look..families are not perfect.but when a mother has a favorite child-look out--no matter what you do--you are never good enough.And all of these favorite children when mother and father reached the age of going into a nursing home-well you are the one that is screwed because they cant be bothered.Well,let me tell you this..I do not and I will not date or associate with anyone that has got small children,grown children or grandchildren.I do not want children at all and I resent that you want me to bring them into my life.So if you have small children or anything kind of children please remember this--i will be nice to you butnthats about it.I want to enjoy the rest of my life and i am just going to stuff here now.But if you have children-excuse me--why should I postpone my vacation for you?And if you are a Republican-please get lost.And if you do not like music at all-please get lost and if you are into this fitness craze-takingn vitamins,going to the gym and such--please get lost.I refuse to get involved with anyone like you either.And the scientists here just came out with data on vitamins and exercise.There is no evidence that all of these vitamins and such will make you live a longer life or live longer.In fact,these vitamins that are out today are making claims that just are not true.Water does not contain any of these vitamins,food does and I do not waste my money on it.The tap water in seattle is fine.But if you see my crying and such-do me a favor-let me cry.I have got a right to feel bad and I have got this right and it is none of anyones concern at all now because some of these people here stink and I am glad that I got my cats.