I am in a marriage that is built on lies. My husband is a drug addict and no one knows in my family we have been together 8 yrs and I have covered for him countless times and this is eating me up inside when he comes back from disappearing for the weekend I just want to scream, curse, fight, bite, hit him but I can't, I must hold it all inside and put on a face for our son because I will look like the one who is losing it and wrong. But it is not fair why is it that he comes back and I just have to wait or ignore him. I hate him right now and all I could do is cry because he is who I love but I don't love the addict I feel so alone and my spirit feels like it is breaking. I will be looking for a therapist because I'm losing myself and I really need to get my strength back. I put a face on for everyone but I'm getting tired of it. How long does he think this will last I guess forever that's why the next move is mine.
Posts You May Be Interested In
I miss traveling with my husband. Has anyone found a specific site regarding cruising for widow/widowers or any sightseeing trips. Not interested in being with couples and kids,,,I realize a cruise ship will have a portion size of families and couples, but perhaps they also put together a part of the cruise ship for groups of widows/widowers????
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...