ill try to make this as short as possible. 

1. Hubby gets caught multiple times on porn, adult hook up sites, having video sex online. Confronted again and again.

each time I hear:

oh I must have accidentally clicked on something 

i was just looking 

i would never act on it

i will work at not doing that anymore 

( offers cheesy pathetic items to appease me: like a candy bar, or something of no value)

phase two: the period of time where all I hear about is how good he's doing and working on himself) you know until a few weeks go by and I'm not on his ass.

Round2

again same thing.. only difference is I see and read his profiles photos and contacts on these sites. Saying he has a sexless marriage and a 9" .. u know. And he needs attention. First off I know what you look like and I've seen it before who are you kidding? 

His response: so sorry I'm gonna go to therapy or sex addiction anonymous blah blah blah.. more ridiculous gifts he'll come home and be like hey honey I thought you might like This pez dispenser.. seriously?

round 3

same thing only I find out he calls and Skypes so him and some whore can masturbate for each other while I'm sleeping in other room 

i even found the Skype video was saved and saw the entire thing 

response: couples therapy and for years any time issues was addressed it was but I would never act on it. Gets a self help workbook fills out three pages. Starts a journal to talk about his sobriety writing everything he thinks I want to hear and leaves it out for me to read

round 4

searched phone and checked addresses he put in map app. When I asked about an address he said he was gonna have sex with escort but couldn't do it and went home. 30 minutes later with no where to go he admits he cheated that one time. Few hours later it turns into several times a few threesomes, and 7 hookers total 

he has been leaving work early and using our money I need for my medications and drs on hookers

he would go into bathroom at work and have phone sex and jerk off in stall.

i found every hidden email account he created , every profile on every site, got number and addresses for every girl he spoke to and slept with 

i called them all and said woman to woman my heart was broken and I know they wouldn't want that to happen to them.

tgey all sympathized and told me the extent of there relationship sent me any conversations and photos they exchanged 

i felt like my insides shriveled up and I died inside. I had nightmares for years, triggers all the time paranoia 

i stayed because im a recovering alcoholic and he stood by me through my addiction and rehab and jail and I understood addictions and was willing to help him get treatment 

i had to instruct him on every little thing he should have done on his own. I sent him every book podcast article I could find so he would understand what his actions did to me 

he went to therapy briefly read what I asked him to I made him read and watch all the videos and messages to those whores out loud in front of me so he could hear his words and feel the reality of what he did and the disgust I felt

during all this I had become disabled with a MovementDisorder dystonia seizures I had a speech impairment and he made it worse,

inthought he really made a change it's been almost a year since last incident and yesterday I found he used my iPad to go to those sites again 

his response is because I am disabled he had to take care of his needs elsewhere 

as if I didn't have enough guilt I can't be intimate often with him 

he asks if we can make a compromise 

r u fuckin kidding me? Knowing how you destroyed me in such a way and caused so much pain, you decided to be a selfish ass and meet your needs instead and say I'm the reason it happened?

if he had for once told me he messed up or was honest I could have respected his courage a lot. Instead he was selfish and didn't want himself to get yelled at or be uncomfortable by admitting 

i have nothing left to feel I'm numb.