Hi!  New to this site and group, but glad to join into the fight with you all.

In high school and college I struggled with porn, mostly pictures and such.  Off and on struggle.  The addiction broke after college but comes back in spurts.  

Some years later, those spurts get a bit more risky.  First it was pictures, now videos.  Then risky chatting.  Then video chatting.  And it hits me most when I'm home alone and tired with too much extra time.

Recently, I even paid to have an interactive video session with a female.  Ended up getting screwed out of some money.  Had to bluff my way around this as I did not want to hurt my wife (who saw the strange charges).  Woke me up to how fast this can go downhill.

But it's time to end this.  Lies cannot happen.  And like any addiction, it'll just grow.  First pics, then videos, then live chat.  What next?  Meeting someone for sex?  I admit the thought has crossed my mind.  But I only imagine how that would destroy my life.

I have internet filters, but there's always a way around.  But, I'm beginning to meet with another guy for accountability.  Someone who will ask me--point blank--about these struggles.  I can't get around that with tech saviness.  

Porn feels nice, but leads to emptiness.  It feels manly but is childish.  This is a struggle for me but it's time to be a man, be honest, and go to war with porn.  It can destroy me or I can destroy it, but we cannot move in together and expect things to remain nice.

Thanks for listening to my confession-rant :)