Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group
Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.
I'm 29(M) married with kids, I have had a discreet porn habit for many years now, I am a recovered heroin user 8 years so I know I have willpower, but I am really beginning to suffer from my overindulgence in porn and masturbation. This compulsive behavior that feels very much like addiction has really destroyed my self image, levels of productivity, drives my depression, I don't appreciate the little things that bring joy to me that people are still enjoying, it is taking a toll on the way I view my wife of 7 years it is obvious because of my increasingly difficult ability to get excited thinking about and sometimes looking at my wife it usially takes physical contact to get the blood flowing like the beginningof ED but caused by my habitual use of porn. I look at porn daily either photo galleries or videos sometimes erotica. Tomorrow will be my first day starting my abstaining of pornography, going to continually tell myself I deserve true happiness and love. I want to love my life again.
You need to talk to her and you also need to do the 90 challenge( no sex, no porn, no lusting), for starters.
Start writing down on paper why you are looking for the porn fix.
Start reading everything you can about the damage and addict
start praying every time you feel depressed.
If you can not be honest with her get an accountability partner.
Start by being clean, sober and healthy for just today. it will be difficult at first,
Don't try to solve the worlds problems, just yours and just for today.
keep coming back it helps
My advice to you is get help, talk to a therapist who is familiar with addiction. Find the local Sex Anonymous meeting https://www.sa.org/f2f/united-states-of-america/ and start attending, and talk to your wife. The mistake I made was never talking to mine about the problems I have. If she loves you, she will support you. It is not easy, I have been trying to recover for weeks and I am tested everyday by outside influences. Stay strong and focused!