Hi Joeybman,

Thank you for sharing bro! I hear you man. It's funny tempting it is for us as humans to over complicate recovery and think we have to complete 12 steps and jump through this hoop and that when it's actually very simple -> draw close to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you. I spent over 7 years trying to get the 12 steps to do for me but I had more results when I spent a few weeks drawing close to Jesus. How did Samson defeat an entire army by himself or David defeat Goliath? They counted on the Lord to fight and there is nobody who is going to defeat our Lord. He is the Lord of lords, the King of kings, when we die every knee shall bow before him and every tongue confess he is Lord. The enemy wants to hold us in bondage and convince us the battle is over and we lose. He wants us to feel like we are in quicksand. Weak, destroyed, and hopeless like we could never get free. The enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy and the reason we come to sites like this is because we know we’re needing help. But our God is an awesome God, he picks us up out of the garbage we got ourselves into when we call on him, he puts a new heart in us so we can love our sisters in Christ and see them with new eyes, he bled and died for our acting out with porn and shame we’ve been carrying, he paid the price so we could be set free in this life and in the next, while we were still sinners. He has a plan for our lives, he was there the moment we were created in our mother wombs, he knew we would find ourselves in the pit of acting out, and he still chose to make us, and chose to die for us knowing we would not be perfect. He loves us and he has a much larger calling on our lives than acting out all day and being in bondage. God wants to use us for his glory, he loves and cares for us. If there is anybody reading this post who has not given their heart to Jesus and you’re not sure what will happen to you if were to die tonight, it’s time to give your life over to Jesus say this prayer:

Jesus you created me for a purpose. You died for my sins. You were buried and on the third day you rose from the grave. Death itself could not defeat you. You sacrificed your life so that I may have enteral life with you. Please forgive me of my sins. Direct me to a local church where I can be baptized and become a disciple for you. I don’t want to be in this addiction anymore. I’m willing to do whatever it takes to get well. I want to pray with you on a regular basis and be in fellowship with you. Show me the purpose of my life and move me away from being a negative dark force taking from females to a place where I can contribute to your cause and become a beacon of light for you. Protect me from evil Lord. In Jesus name. Amen

Good for you. Thats amazing. Your wife is lucky to have you. You realize you have a problem, and your seeking help. Im proud of you.

Thanks y’all for your support, I do appreciate it. I’m still going strong and looking forward to this weekend too.

That's awesome bro. Keep it up. Be ready when lust tries to temp you back into bondage. Like a thief it will not be able to deliver what it promises. It will tell you that it will solve your problems, ease your stress, help you deal with difficult emotions and situation... but in fact it makes problems worse, adds stress, and gives more hard emotions to deal with like shame. The enemy normally attacks us with resentment and anger, then that leads to acting out. So pray for your enemies, do good to those who harm you, don't give the enemy a foothold and go to bed angry in your heart. In recovery, we learn that many of us are more addicted to resentments than anything else... it leads us back into acting out so every day we pray for anybody that pissed us off, we ask that God would give them everything we would want for ourselves. God speed!