this is what I try to do:
2 Corinthians 10:5
5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

If you not a religious person than use the principle in this verse. You have power over your thoughts no matter how helpless you might feel. I can sympathize with that, trust me.

It's a shame our minds work that way. Images of things I've done almost 4 years ago still haunt me every once in a while.

I feel like you just need to keep strong so you can resist urges to hold onto the memory. Even though you haven't indulged in a while, it's important to keep doing the activities that keep you strong so you don't relapse. Like an athlete. You can look at a retired athlete that isn't even 40 and you can see they are most definitely not as fit to do what they used to do. Muscles deteriorate over time. So does our discipline if we're not careful.

Though, I'm a firm believer that, if you keep ignoring it, it will eventually not come up at all. Mine probably just keeps coming up 4 years later because of my ongoing recovery process and my constant relapses up until a couple months ago.

Stay strong. Keep at it. Be patient with yourself.

bremmer,

The best approach to your dilemma is not to give it importance. This is where detachment becomes a daily practice to be mastered.

Learning detachment which is to see anything from an objective viewpoint, that is not to be emotionally invested in what you are looking at it in any way is the key to your solution.

Along with that, not accessing that site whatsoever will be also ideal. In time, that will no longer be a problem in your life.

For the sake of argument, let's say you do, if you are not the least bit invested because thrill seeking is itself attention seeking (which brings me to learning ways of caring and accepting yourself are key here),you would not even bother to look for anything of the sort.

Wolf