It will get better. You spent decades training your brain to expect the release of looking at porn as an escape from your everyday life/emotions/stresses.

The cravings you feel – which is your brain saying "hey! I need my fix!" – will fade over time as you re-train your brain to find comfort in other, healthier activities. It isn't easy, because you can't rewire your brain overnight (or even over months). But it does happen.

It's good you have a counselor. Depending on where you live, you might also want to seek out a 12-step group like SAA. Having a group of live people to share your experience with who won't judge can be really powerful.

Online support groups like this one are also great. There's a lot of good feedback here. You might also try NoFap.com, which has sub-groups specifically for people of every age, marital status, etc. We'd caution, though, that staring at a screen is part of the intoxication of modern porn. Relying too heavily on any online activity for support may be something to avoid at this stage of your recovery. Pairing activity here with connecting with a live human being who understands what you're going through can be better.

Good luck, and let us know how else we might help.

Yours,
The Team @ PornHelp.org

This is the first time I write anything about this problem which is a big step for me. I have had a pornography addiction since childhood, been masturbating since then, I read several forum where people say a key point is to find the cause of this and I believe this has to do with the fact I was fat and unattractive when I was 14 yo. During the following years I developed my body to became a very good looking young man but I kept my insecurity with women. I didn`t really know how to behave with them and sometime I used masturbation to calm myself down,,, I was afraid to be refused so I moved toward `easier` and occasional relationships where I had sex with transsexual (I am straight not gay) as they were the first to come forward. I had problems to admit this was an addition as most of people I know are much worse then me, but even considering now I have two kids and I love my wife, this problem, due to stress at work, got worse and worse, In one occasion I had sex with a prostitute during a business trip, then I confessed to my wife, I started masturbating at work every morning, to use masturbation as relief from stress, to sleep at night, I watch porn in the toilet and continuously at work when I have time. The problem is that is never enough, sometime I masturbate several time for a few days, then I need something more, I get a sexual massage or pay a prostitute for a blowjob, I continuously have fantasies about women (friends of my wife). After I confessed to my wife I promised myself I was going to get help, then I convinced myself I was strong enough to overcome it without it. Things got better at first then they got out of control after 1 year. I am scared I will have to leave with this for the rest of my life but I also want to be a better man for my wife and my kids, I want to be the husband and dad they deserve. I told myself that going to prostitutes was only a physical thing for me and that wasn`t really cheating on my wife! I have no time for face to face sessions but I need help and need to change.

I am a registered sex offender, I have been through years of therapy and joining a support group (for me anyway) was life changing. Groups work! I am in search of one now. I wish u the best of luck finding a good group your comfortable with.