Does anyone find it frustrating to see that the news of PornHub premium being made free was seen with so much joy to the eyes of so many people. I wish porn was viewed as a drug like alcohol or smoking is viewed. That way I think there would almost be less shame around having a porn addiction.

Now for some reason when I heard the new I got jealous of those people who were laughing about the news. I imagine they can watch porn and just move on with the rest of their life and almost take it as a joke. I wish I could view porn that way but when I start watching I get completely wrapped up into tue fantasies and get a pleasure thst is too intense that any mention of porn (even if its a reference of a joke) during what should be a normal chat with friends makes me burn with shame and make me feel like a freak. Does anyone understand this feeling?