Hi I've been masturbating to porn since I was 12 years old, but I remember watching it earlier on when I was 9. I didn't think it was an addiction for a long time, but I've felt disgusted and terrible about myself. When I fully realized it I tried myself to stop for a week, failed, another week attempt with filters, failed, and again for a week or two without any triggers or looking anything up and failed. After those attempts I just gave up and let it be a part of my life, and being alone at home for so long that was the best stress relief there. As time went on though I felt more anxious around people, scared I was a disgusting person, and just worthless. Porn continued to be my coping tool for any daily stress or emotion I did not like. Until I met someone, she has been the greatest thing in my life, but I still struggled with my addiction. So, I had a therapist and told her about it. I still didn't take it seriously and relapsed after a month. I'm still with her, she's still by my side, but I want to be better for myself and her. So, I'm not scared or anxious as much, healthier at talking with people, and more active in my life again. So, I'm finally looking for a forums and groups to help with this after years of being scared of talking with others. If anyone would be, or able to, I would like to be someone's and someone to be my accountability partner.