I am using this website as an outlet to hopefully analyze and get past this massive addiction I have to pornography. My addiction created a strain between me and my father. He found out how bad my addiction was and tried to help me, but at the time, I didn't feel that I needed his help and that I could quit at any time. My father tried to convince me that I was headed down the wrong road, and now I am beginning to see that he was right. I haven't spoken to him in four years( An estimate), mainly because I know that I don't deserve to call him father with how much of a freak I have become because of my addiciton. The things it has caused me to look at .... I know in my heart are horrible and show that I am undeserving of the title of being his son. He is probably one of the most intelligent and kind beings I have ever met in my entire life to this day and I am so ashamed that I have fallen as far as I have. Starting today I will get on here every single day and avoid porn at all costs. I have come up with a workout routine in hopes that it will cause me to be too tired to even look at porn. I have officially gained full time at work to avoid idle hands. I am going to do everything I can to stop what I have become. My wife and son need me. I know what I must do. All thats left is to act accordingly.