Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group
Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.
I have posted before about my online affair with a man in Europe. I have not been able to find the strength to end it. Lately, we have dabbled in mild S & M (hence the 'sick' and 'twisted' that I responded in a different thread). Last week, I did a couple things that caused minor injury and I realized that this has to stop before I do real damage. The fact that mild pain turns me on is no reason to jeopardize my health. I am going to tell him that there will be no more of that kind of acting out. I don't know how he will react. I have sent him photos that could ruin my life, should he choose to use them to get revenge. I am scared to death right now, but I do want my life back. I have spent a year and two monthes wasting time online. I am not sure anyone will take me seriously, as I have posted here before, but I need to get it off my chest anyway. Thanks.
deleted_user
Well, I can understand. Its such a strange thing to be so drawn to someone you have only met online and yet I know I feel it. I actually am jealous that you get time with your guy, I would give anything for one hour on the phone with this woman. Harry
cindy666
Do not be jealous. You do not want this. It consumes your life, which should be lived in the real world.
deleted_user
Well hon ,you did kinda cross the invisible line a bit with sending the pics and also putting "evidence" out there (which i'm assuming you didn't include a face shot ). I'm looking to cheat physically, but i will never give my cell number or address to a woman i hook up with. Not sure how to help you from here hon ,especially if you are certain that you want to end it. Message me and i can try to help you further if you like.
cindy666
It is amazing what boundaries fall when you think you are 'in love'. Yeah, if it bites me in the ass, it's my own fault...but it also makes me feel trapped. No, my face isn't in the pics, but he has plenty of clean ones with my face. Anyway, if he mailed them to my husband, my husband would know it was me, face or no face. The people I know who are sex addicts in recovery tell me I have to take the risk and end it anyway. I'm sure they are right.
cindy666
Further to that last message...I think that is where the idea of addiction comes in. I did not want to give him my phone number, nor did I want to send the pics. I did it anyway.
deleted_user
I am very deeply in love with a wonderful woman I met on the net. My aim is to marry her when things are sorted out. She is there for me when others are not. Kind forgiving wise inteligent. I am very lucky to have found my soulmate at long last.
cindy666
Your situation may well be different than mine. I am married and don't want to leave my husband. Yet, I have let this online thing take time and emotion away from my family. And I do things...like sending pics...that I don't want to do. I have neighbors who met on the net, so there is nothing intrinsically wrong with it.
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