Hi there - I'm looking for an accountability partner to support each other in coming out of addictive cycles of internet porn. 
I would like to chat to someone online about our experience and be able to check in to see how we're progressing or go to for tips on a bad day.

Here's a bit about me:

Im only recently admitting to myself that my porn addiction is real and a problem. I've been doing it since I was first sexually active - so 12 years old, so its always coloured my experience of sex.

I grew up in an abusive household and I can imagine it is a form of denying myself or escaping from pain I can't deal with.

There's been a lot of guilt and shame wrapped up in it, especially due to the type of porn I have looked at.

Several times in life I have thought I had kicked it. I started living with my beautiful partner recently, and I hoped that would mark a change but it hasn't and the addiction has been back. I think it is damaging my relationship, aswell as my work life and mental health. I'm terrified that because I can't let go of this it's going to take away the new life I am trying to build. 

I suffer with depression and anxiety that is made much worse by porn addiction. I've tried meditation and talking therapies but the addiction has just come back. I'm hoping that supportive community can make a big difference.

I have some experience working in mental health and I hope that will mean that I can offer something to someone who is on the same journey as me in finding honesty and support to leave behind these toxic coping mechanisms.

Please message and tell me a bit about your experience so we can chat about supporting each other. For now I would rather keep to speaking online only for privacy reasons. Thanks for reading.