I've been battling with porn since I was 15. I just started so that I could figure out what all my friends were talking about. I grew up in a homeschooling background so I was a little bit clueless on sex and what sex positions there were. I wanted to belong and so I looked up porn for the first time. I can remember the first thing I looked up because I wanted to know what it was. I didn't know but after that, I felt like I could belong to conversations. Until I was doing it for more than research. I was watching porn up to 5 times a day. 
I even watched porn while I was engaged. She found out once and it ruined our relationship. We're not together anymore and my porn addiction got worse because I felt like I was alone and wouldn't be judged for anything I did. I felt like I could get love without anyone judging me. 

Now I really want to fall in love and I don't want porn to affect my life anymore. I don't want my relationships to be affected by porn, so I watched a TedxTalk and it said that the best thing to do was be honest. So here I am being honest about how it feels and why I watch porn. 
I just need someone to talk to about it. That's why I'm here. If you guys have practical tips, that'd be much appreciated!