Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group
Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.
i am not sure if i have a problem or not. i look at pornography quite regularly and if i am at home for the day alone i will probably masterbate a couple of times during the day with pornography. i am not so woried about this but what worries me is that i sometimes look up call girls on the net and consider phoning them. i don't think i'd actually go with them. i just get this compulsion to look them up. its like i become a different person.
i have slept with prostitues before but that was when i was younger and stupid in amsterdam and thailand. i know it was wrong and am not proud of it but it happened. i liked to think of it as a live and learn sort of situation however since recently looking up call girls on the net i have doubts about the innocence of my exploits.
i am completly aware that sleeping with prostitutes is completly unhealthy and i don't want to do it. but i scare myself when i am on the net and i lose my self control and start to look up escorts and call girls. why the fuck, am i doing it? its like my mind goes blank and i am running on autopilot or something. afterwards i feel quite bad about myself and worry about it. i tell myself the solution is to just stop and that makes me feel better because i feel control over it again.
i'd like to add that i do not have any major problems with woman or consider myself incapable of having any relations with the opposite sex but the more i do this kind of thing i start to feel like i am not capable of having a relationship because i have some deeper subconsious beast within.
to i just need to exercise self control or am i some sort of sexual addict or offender. i would apreciate some advice or direction, thank you.
i have slept with prostitues before but that was when i was younger and stupid in amsterdam and thailand. i know it was wrong and am not proud of it but it happened. i liked to think of it as a live and learn sort of situation however since recently looking up call girls on the net i have doubts about the innocence of my exploits.
i am completly aware that sleeping with prostitutes is completly unhealthy and i don't want to do it. but i scare myself when i am on the net and i lose my self control and start to look up escorts and call girls. why the fuck, am i doing it? its like my mind goes blank and i am running on autopilot or something. afterwards i feel quite bad about myself and worry about it. i tell myself the solution is to just stop and that makes me feel better because i feel control over it again.
i'd like to add that i do not have any major problems with woman or consider myself incapable of having any relations with the opposite sex but the more i do this kind of thing i start to feel like i am not capable of having a relationship because i have some deeper subconsious beast within.
to i just need to exercise self control or am i some sort of sexual addict or offender. i would apreciate some advice or direction, thank you.
I admire your honesty and desire to find examine yourself. My ex-bf was an addict. I cannot tell you if you are. There are assessments that you can take though. Here is one: http://sash.net/content/view/46/53/
What you describe seems to be what I've read about though. That is, that you feel like a different person and the inablity to stop even though you want to. It's not so much what you do, but whether you can stop. The shame you feel afterwards is part of what triggers the addiction cycle as well. Good luck. It sounds like asking yourself some questions is a very good,healthy step. If it is addiction, I know you don't want to let it continue like my ex-bf did. It has destroyed almost every aspect of his life.
It can affect relationships if it goes unchecked. You might consider getting into a counseling program or a mentoring program, or join an organization such as SAA or SLAA. If it bothers you a lot, get help.
I have one of the assessments MiaA mentioned on my journal dated Monday, September 3rd as well. It is what helped me realize that I was an addict. Only you can figure that out for yourself.
If you find that you are one, I and many others on this forum are here to help you get through it. It's a long, hard road, but it's better than the alternative. Be well!
thanks again