Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group
Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.
I have been struggling with pornography and masturbating since I had my first crush. It all started in 4th or 5th grade when I was only 9. I once clicked an ad which had kissing stuff. I then got curious and went into youtube to search people making out. I was not worried back then because I was simply curious but i definitely knew i wasnt supposed to be watching that. Then one day I found a porn page and actually saw porn for the first time in my life when I was 11. I really enjoyed touching myself but I always hid what I was doing from my family since we are a Christian family and this is considered a sin. I am now 16 years old and for the past 2 years I've really wanted to stop doing this but I eventually let myself down and start doing it all over again. Today was the worst day of them all because I really didn't want to but I did it and afterwards I bursted out in tears. I have never felt that way before. I was really ashamed and grossed out because I kept on doing it for 1 hour without stopping. It was until today that I prayed to God to help me gain self-control and to help me find guidance into what I should do. I can't pay for therapy and I will never tell my parents so I am trying to overcome this by myself cause I know I can. Now I am thankfully here, trying to find some advice. Please help me.