I found out it was b/c my cousin and best friend molested me for eight years so I was used to it. So I started with this stuff and now I realize how much it truly hurts to be molested for so long and not know thats what was happening....Im catching the aftermath of it and Im suffering really bad for it. I have a boyfriend and I cant do anything with him b/c Im still paying for what my cousin did to me. I did something with my boyfriend and then burst into tears b/c of it....i didnt know why at first but now I do, and now I will take revenge, and get over it.