I am not sure if you still come on here. But I am just going to hope that maybe you do read this. I just want to say that addiction is very hard. Falling back into old habits is familiar. We tend to go back to what is familiar. I am sorry you are struggling. But what I can say is this- if you have the ability to change your thoughts, you change your life. And the good news is, you DO have the power to change your thoughts. I pray you lean on to what is true and cling onto the truth. Once we know something is wrong, we do have the ability to steer away from it; although hard. I am praying for you.

Thank you for replying to me i was starting to think no one came here anymore. I'm still battling this, I'm so tired of this place. I'm here 24/7. All my family is gone except one sister in Oklahoma.

that's a big problem for sure being unhappy where you are at. That's whenyou need to find something that makes you happy. Especially if you can't change your living situation. Find a hobby. Something cathartic and soothing. Go out of your element. If they offer and kind of classes take them and see if they appeal to you. I personally etch mirrors and have for years. I found diving more in to it brings me peace and the distraction i need to change my focus. Don't give up! I know i plan on being a regular here to offer any insight i can and read and take any tips i can use for myself