Therefore we do not lose heart.  Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. There are a lot of Christians here and all of us not only feel guilt and shame, we let it take over - separating us from God.  We can't open up to people for fear of condemnation. We feel like abominations. Jesus has never and will never shame us. We are pure spirits wrapped in a thin, ever dwindling human skin and as small as the flesh is compared to an eternal soul within, somehow the spirit is lost. Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. I feel shame when I relapse and the consequence is I stop praying for a while.  I find it more of a struggle to get to church. I can't listen to christian music after binging for four hours.   but that is what Jesus calls us to do. Lift our heads and Bring the crap and give it to him. He says, I'll take care of it. We were given heart transplants when we chose to follow Christ. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. We are never separated from him. Guilt and shame pull a veil in front of the cross. It's just a price of fabric compared to an overwhelming love that pours harder and deeper on us as we bury ourselves deeper and deeper in guilt and shame. I'm only ranting because guilt and shame take us so far away from God. He never planted the idea in my mind that I need to feel shame for three days after...abusing a natural drive. We are forgiven before we turn the computer on. We are forgiven typing in our favorite site. And we are forgiven when we shut it off. But when I shut it off I always, immediately go to self condemnation. Jesus doesn't. I need to trust him at all times. We feel guilt because we are convicted and the Holy Spirit is in us. Jesus never came for me because I'm a perfect human. He says, go and sin no more. You are forgiven. He came for me because I'm flawed. We are all good when you kneel at the cross. I try and try to defeat it and I have really done a good job of it over the past year. The bigger the sin the more we are forgiven. Please, don't let guilt and shame keep you closed in behind high and thick walls. Break out and tell someone.