I'm 22 and I've been addicting to pornography since I was 14. It started out "harmless", the same kind of usage that other people might experience, and escalated over the years. It got to the point where it was 3+ times a day, every day, for years. Going to friend's houses and using my phone to hide in their bathroom or while I'm taking a shower. During a study abroad trip, even, when I was staying with my ex girlfriend every night for over a month, I'd sneak away. I lied to her about it for a full three years and she still never knew. After years I'm tired of it. It's been a week since the last time I watched anything - which seems short, but it's the longest I've gone in literal years, thanks to an experience I had this weekend taking my mind off everything else. I want to stop wasting hours a day watching porn, I want to stop feeling guilty all the time, and frankly I want a normal, healthy sexual relationship with my boyfriend. I told him, today - the only person I've ever told in my entire life, and he supported me and showed me this website.

Since it's been just over a week now I'm getting dopamine withdrawals like hell - confusion, anxiety, panic attacks, numbness - but I'm starting therapy on Monday, and until then, I've got an amazing support system.

Here's hoping, everybody.