Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group
Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.
I don't normally do this (post on forums I mean), but I need some impartial opinions/advice. I'm in a very healthy relationship, but I masturbate every other day. I watch porn which I understand is perfectly normal. But, I much prefer chatting to someone while I masturbate or to be an exhibitionist. I've still got accounts from when I was single like Fetlife, Kik and Skype, but I've tried to give them up as I feel like that would be cheating on my GF. It's been a while since I deleted the apps and deactivated my accounts but I still feel the urge to download them again! I'm a straight male and I talk to other straight males about fetishes we have in common and we often trade porn or watch porn together, is there any harm in that?
None of that is bad, if you only did it once and never did it again.
But every time you do it you destroy your very soul and spirit.
You find you take the next step deeper and deeper into the dark. You comprise your morals with every step, tearing down your love for yourself, and then for others.
You lie to yourself, you con yourself, you make excuses to yourself, you feel entitled.
Every step you take will destroy your ability to love yourself, love God and love others.
Before you know it the only way you can get off is with your drug.
But wait you have it under control, you own it, you are the boss.... not really. You cant stop on your own, Your spiritual self is dying, and you dont even care or know it.
You dont care if you dont need a person of the opposite sex to love you or to love yourself. You have your drug of choice.
So what if you cant get aroused by your wife, cant receive pleasure with your wife without your drug, You can drink, smoke, see porn, read smut, do drugs to get off. Of course that is the only way you can get off is with all of those things.
That was my life, masturbating all day every day, Normal sex did not do it for me any more. I did not love myself, I didn't love God, and I could not love anyone else for that matter. First it was sex all the time - anywhere- any how - anyone to get off, to feel wanted, to feel loved, to get attention to feel lusted after. Then it was Sex and alcohol to get off. Then Sex, alcohol, and porn to get off. then Sex, Alcohol, porn and drugs.... just to get off.
Destroyed my own two marriages, and countless relationships.
8+ months ago I turned to the SA program, I started the program, I have been sober every since, I am learning to love myself everyday, I am learning to love God everyday, and one day I will be able to love others without my drug, addiction and enjoy a peaceful life free of acting out.
As always its your choice until its not...
I pray you are safe and healhty.