Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group

Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.

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Anonymous1994 05/19/2014

I've had my porn addiction since I was 12 years old, pretty much ever since I started masturbating. It's been 8 years and I've yet to break it. In my childhood my mother neglected me and my dad was high every time I saw him .. I never had meals growing up, it was cereal 3-4 times a day for years and years. I also got bullied physically and verbally for years, every class period, in school. When I got out I met my first love. She would call me a pussy, ugly, and fucked up in the head and that I belonged in a mental institution. Which 2 years later I ended up going to twice for suicidal and homicidal idealization. Since I broke up with her and lost my best friend 3 years ago I've been in isolation, which has made it extremely difficult to break this addiction. I've also been diagnosed with: chronix anxiety, major depression disorder, ADHD, OCD, dyslexia or a disorder on the autism spectrum, and derealization. Beating this addiction will certainly give me the boost I desperately need .. Confidence and motivation to take that next step in life.

- Thanks for reading and any feedback is much appreciated

deleted_user 05/19/2014

Hi!

Sorry to hear that you have gone through at such a young age. Sometimes addictions can take a toll on our lives without realising it. I have been struggling with pornography for the past six years. I am 21 now. I have recently been doing this thing called Fortify to help me with my porn addiction and its been great so far. Only one relapse in the last couple of months. Here is the link: http://www.fortifyprogram.org

I hope it helps and I hope you get better.

deleted_user 05/20/2014

Thanks for the link to a new resource to add to our list.

anonymous, you have a lot on your plate that is very difficult to deal with. With all those struggles, it must seem that sometimes it's easier to just get high.. get some pleasure.. but then.. after the few moments. there is reality again.

I'm sorry you 'first love' was abusive to you.

Beating the addiction and overcoming these deep problems will probably come together,, since the key to beating the addiction is finding better things to do, which is also helpful in overcoming the problems.

Are you in any kind of helpful treatment?

I think you've made a good first Step in coming out of isolation by posting here. Welcome to the group.

deleted_user 05/20/2014

Hello anonymous,
It is sad to here that you have gone through so much. It also give me hope that there are such strong people out there that are fighting so hard to overcome. Something that has helped me a lot with my attempts to overcome my addiction to porn is understanding the science and chemical part to it. http://yourbrainonporn.com/your-brain-on-porn-series I hope this helps a little bit. As for myself, One day at a time. I vow to make it for one day today in honor of you. You and your story have helped me be a little bit stronger and I thank you for that. I will post back here tomorrow and let you know how I did...

2earlyriser 05/20/2014

Anonymous, I too was abused and neglected as a child. I ended up in psychiatric hospitals due to attempted suicides. I want you to know that you can recover from this addiction. There is always hope. This is not a death sentence. Join a 12 step group if you are able. Hang in there you are on a good path now.

Anonymous1994 05/20/2014

I have to look at my life like this: I won't have to go through my past again .. My past will however help shape how I look at my future. I had what I'd call a horrible past, therefore I can better appreciate the future. It's like right now I'm going through hell, but once I'm done with it all I'll have the rewarding gift of freedom and happiness .. A new life.
failureteaches: The Fortify Program looks great; I've yet to find a website like that dedicated to helping porn addicts - thanks for the share!
xa1nbowxR: I've gone through 2 years of therapy for psychological problems - that's helped me better deal with things today and educated me on my other illnesses. Right now I'm going through trial and error of finding the right medicine.
BlackCat11: I'll be sure to check that website out - I love neuroscience so I'm sure I'll find it interesting! Thanks!
2earlyriser: Sorry to hear of your troubles, it seems you're in a better place now though! I may look into the 12 step program; I read that xa1nbowxR has one open.

Thank you all so much for your kind words; you've brightened my day, given me strength, and have sure made me feel welcome :)

If any you need anything feel free to message me. I can also give good advice on exercise; August will make 4 years of hitting the gym :) (I had to get rid of those bullies somehow lol)

deleted_user 05/21/2014

I created a 12 Step group as an introduction to what the 12 Steps are, sone of the key concepts, for people not familiar with them. There are a couple of other active people whose participation is very helpful, and that then as a group visitors can see what kinds of discussions we have.. topical, focused on one's own efforts, solution oriented instead of problem oriented.

The basic 12 Steps, as originally laid out by Alcoholics Anonymous, with the concepts used as 'recovery tools', have the best track record and success rate of all the various methods over the years. A person can find a good group locally, but if there are none can get an appropriate book, and now find resources online, to start working the Steps and using the concepts on their own. I used to go to a lot of meetings, some groups are better than others, and after a couple of years I didn't go so often but I always work the Steps,, day in and day out, and use the concepts, more now Steps 10, 11 and 12,, but still even 1,2 and 3.

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