Getting out of bed, fighting the usual negative thinking. First I think of all the years I've squandered. I think about how I've always wanted to be a college professor and how I have two friends who do it as part of their careers.

Agh!

I am going to think about calculus now. I am going to get my prescription filled (which is a triumph for me because at 47 I still can't remember to do these things on my own). Then fix dinner. I'm not sure what else, maybe call a friend or something. Anything. I totally buy into the negative thinking and there is no reason why I should. No one is making me, there is no rule that says I have to keep doing this.