Self Hate Syndrome Community Group
This is a group designed to offer support to people who believe they are fundamentally bad and deserve to be punished. Here we can learn to stop the unholy war we have been waging against ourselves.
I am sure we have a thread like this open but I wanted to start fresh. So HI! Introduce yourself and join in the support of those who know your struggle with self hate... I'll start...
Hi :) I'm BerBerBear aka Amber and I am 29 years old. I have lots of mental issues and physical health issues that in the safety of our group i would gladly share sometime. I've hated myself since i can remember. A combination of my chemical make up and my home life. I self harm, though i'm trying to stop, and though i want to love myself i am far far from it. I desire to help people and remind people what beautiful and worthy souls they are and i try to do that in everything i do. Aside from that? I ramble like it's my job, i LOVE to knit and crochet (right now i'm knitting a pair of socks for the winter season) I love God and though i have no definite future I try to take it one day at a time and trust he knows what he's doing.
So... Who is out there with me?!
Hi :) I'm BerBerBear aka Amber and I am 29 years old. I have lots of mental issues and physical health issues that in the safety of our group i would gladly share sometime. I've hated myself since i can remember. A combination of my chemical make up and my home life. I self harm, though i'm trying to stop, and though i want to love myself i am far far from it. I desire to help people and remind people what beautiful and worthy souls they are and i try to do that in everything i do. Aside from that? I ramble like it's my job, i LOVE to knit and crochet (right now i'm knitting a pair of socks for the winter season) I love God and though i have no definite future I try to take it one day at a time and trust he knows what he's doing.
So... Who is out there with me?!
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I am waiting for info on the next seasons for: Untamed, The Burbs and Happys Place.
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What’s the biggest challenge in your life right now?
I am the founder-Steve, or Estevan as I prefer. I have lived and traveled extensively in the North American Continent. I traveled a whole lot in my younger years, mostly by thumb. I moved to Chicago in 1988 and have lived there more than anywhere else as an adult. I call it home and have many friends and allies there. My wife and I are hard at work on a non-profit corporation which we are starting up. Put simply we want to have a retreat center here in the High Desert region. We want to have poor people who suffer from PTSD to be able to find the magic in the NM desert. It is a beautiful setting for this dream and we will in due season be able to offer our services free of charge for deserving folks. I am a singer/guitar player/writer on the side and find a great deal of comfort when I have my MP3 plugged in.
I used to truly despise myself and have spent long periods of time doing self injurious things but now am learning to accept and forgive myself.
Take heart one and all!
Amber...I think it's awesome that you knit and crochet. That's something that I would love to learn how to do, so I could crochet an afghan for my niece. I've considered classes at Michael's, but haven't been brave enough to sign up for one. : )
Steve...That's wonderful that you and your wife are working on a non-profit. It definitely sounds like you would be meeting the needs of a lot of folks. I've never been to the NM desert, but it sounds really peaceful to me.
Nice to meet you both!
I'm sorry you need to find a group such as self hate, but i'm so very glad to have you here to support and get to know!
Thanks for the welcome. : ) I've actually been wanting to join for a while now, but was hesitant to admit that I deal with a lot of self-hate. I've only shared my feelings with my hubby and therapist. Everyone else perceives me as happy and confident, and I'm ashamed to admit that isn't always so.