Self Hate Syndrome Community Group
This is a group designed to offer support to people who believe they are fundamentally bad and deserve to be punished. Here we can learn to stop the unholy war we have been waging against ourselves.
I have possibly ruined the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. I allowed myself to become a short tempered bully and now the love of my life doesn't even want to live under the same roof as me and it's killing me. He says he will be back soon but I know I've ruined everything . I pushed for more after he gave me everything he had to give. I just want to end everything, he's all I have ever wanted, and as always I have ruined it.
Now, take some deep breaths. The love of your life more than likely just needs time to compose himself and to let you collect yourself. I am sure you didn't ruin it! You saw what you did, you have remorse and you want him back. Just give it a day or so and let him know you want to talk about it and work it out. Communication, calm conversation can work through anything.
Don't end everything... please! Just take it moment by moment... you can get through this!