Dear sweet friend, I have been having such days lately. Can't stop crying. Feeling isolated. Not wanting to bother anyone with my troubles. Wanting an escape. Wishing things were not this way.

The only thing that is helping me right now is response I got when I reached out to friends for encouragement. They rose to the call and I felt so much better. In reaching out I gain strength.

I'm also counting my blessings, being grateful for what I do have instead of obsessing about what I don't have. I gave my troubles to God and thanked him for the good things in my life. This situation I am in is too big for me. I can't solve it on my own. I need friends. I need God. Together with all of us, I have a chance to see victory come. So it's great that you posted here!

I hope you feel better as the day goes on. How? First, want it to be better. Then take an action, no matter how small, that makes the day a little better. Then do another little action and repeat. Before you know it, you will have built enough little good things into it that at night, you'll say, "Hey, this day started out bad but ended up pretty good." You're in my thoughts and prayers.

I did something really stupid last night. I took my kolonoipn my lithium melatonin,remron,and endocet. all with in an hour of each other. I ended up calling my friend how I don't know and he yelled at me. He said I was not making any sense slurring my speech and noddinfg off on the phone. I don't remember that. ANyway not a smart thing to do I guess huh. I am still feeling the effects of it. My eyes are kind of blurry yet and I feel a little sluggish. owell. ok until next time all peace...........